essays

essays

reflection pieces & personal essays
Jan
01
green river headwaters, bridger wilderness, WY — photographed by dave showalter

january 2026: ace of cups // headwaters & sources

the ace of cups, when we allow it to be more than a quest, lets us honor what we have already found.
10 min read
Dec
02
on whatever "enough" is

on whatever "enough" is

you've gotta stop being more afraid of failure than fascism.
8 min read
Dec
01
evergreen trees tipped with snow, in front of a sky filled with stars

december 2025: on resting & changing

we all deserve rest. yes, even me, and yes, even if the dishes still need to be done.
10 min read
Nov
30
compassion vs. perfection

compassion vs. perfection

y'all, life is hard enough. you don't have to use tarot to punish yourself.
10 min read
Nov
29
reading tarot for yourself is hard, actually

reading tarot for yourself is hard, actually

you're not "doing it wrong" — it's just hard.
11 min read
Nov
28
five days of offerings by 3am.tarot

on reflection work that doesn't suck

there is truth in honest reflection, and power in that truth.
8 min read
Nov
04
judgement and six of wands from the wild unknown tarot

grief, gratitude, and turning 40

8 min read
Nov
01
three, five, and eight of swords from the relative tarot

november 2025: on everything being so goddamn hard

i really don't want you to stop caring. i want you to keep your heart soft. and that means that sometimes, you have to let yourself feel the hard thing instead of rushing to solve it.
12 min read
Oct
19
magician from the true black tarot

is "intermediate tarot" just having inside jokes with your cards?

when you get to know the cards themselves as intersecting correspondences and heartbeats of a story, as moments that connect to experiences you've had in your own life — then you will gain a much deeper and richer perspective on what the cards are actually communicating.
10 min read
Oct
01
october 2025: ten of pentacles // building ourselves home

october 2025: ten of pentacles // building ourselves home

what happens when you do something regularly, until it's such a regular part of your world that you forgot what your life was like without it?
10 min read