essays

essays

reflection pieces & personal essays
Jan
27
river styx

so you're afraid of your grief.

grief is tangled up in love, in connection, in what we value. at its core, grief is a response and a reaction to loss — and we don't grieve things that we don't love, that we aren't connected to, that we don't value.
7 min read
Jan
25
so you're eager to find your flow

so you're eager to find your flow

i cherish my grief for the truths it offers, for the values it reflects, for the depths of emotion that it connects me with. my grief is a reminder that i still care, that i still listen, that i still hope for a bigger, brighter world. my grief means that i'm still alive.
11 min read
Jan
24
so you're hovering at the surface

so you're hovering at the surface

no matter how your grief may feel, no matter what your grief may crave, no matter what your grief might be trying to tell you, there's a tarot card for that, a story for that, a cycle for that.
11 min read
Jan
23
sunlight streaming through the surface of the water, from the perspective of below the waves

so you're underwater & overwhelmed

once you start to treat your grief like a gift instead of a burden, once you allow your grief to whisper what it needs, you can let your grief teach you how to envision a more hopeful, beautiful kind of future — not only for yourself, but for the collective.
11 min read
Jan
18
photograph of dam filled with rapidly moving water

so your cup is overflowing with grief

i know that talking about grief isn't sexy — but grief is the ultimate misfit, the ultimate rebel. grief has so much to teach us, if we're willing to learn how to listen.
9 min read
Jan
07
devils & fools: year of the wheel

the numerology of 2026

hello, friends, and welcome again to 2026. on the heels of 2025, an intensive and often disruptive year of emergence,
11 min read
Jan
01
green river headwaters, bridger wilderness, WY — photographed by dave showalter

january 2026: ace of cups // headwaters & sources

the ace of cups, when we allow it to be more than a quest, lets us honor what we have already found.
10 min read
Dec
02
on whatever "enough" is

on whatever "enough" is

you've gotta stop being more afraid of failure than fascism.
8 min read
Dec
01
evergreen trees tipped with snow, in front of a sky filled with stars

december 2025: on resting & changing

we all deserve rest. yes, even me, and yes, even if the dishes still need to be done.
10 min read
Nov
30
compassion vs. perfection

compassion vs. perfection

y'all, life is hard enough. you don't have to use tarot to punish yourself.
10 min read